9.24.2014

Marijuana for Stress...Cont'd...


I don't trust doctor's ideas of "mood-altering pills" and anxiety medication. Yeah, it very well may help me, I get that. But I would rather learn how to deal with life and it's struggles and be happy with the aid of a medicinally-proven plant, than be addicted to mood-altering pills.

Until we had children, I didn't know what "struggle" or "being poor" really was. Oh it's humbling!

"Well Laurie, if you're so poor, how can you afford marijuana..."  Ummm... because it's like $50 per month to have a better mental state of mind morning and evening. So yep. I'm going to say it's worth it. I hope to someday not be poor'ish, but until then, I'm going to share what helps me stay sane, in a world that makes it kinda hard to. I hope someday I can be so joyous and thrilled at life that I jump out of bed as happy as a clam and don't need a puff. Sometimes I have those days, and they're great. But more often than not, I need help. Cannabis is my help, and I promise, I think it can make a world of difference for anyone. If you're on the fence, keep reading and educating yourself about the benefits and then decide what's right for you. 

We have suffered through this economy of a depleted job market for the past four years. It's no longer easy enough to make it on just one income. I've changed as a person in so many ways, one of the most important -- having this sheer empathy and understanding of what poverty and hunger can do and what it's like for people. And for those who never know, the empathy never will really be there. You learn later in life that actually, no one cares about you...unless you're really lucky. You learn that others have their own lives and problems and not really that much time for anything else.

Mj helps me see that what I need to do is try to help someone else. 

I can't ignore the stories in the news of parents abusing their children. I read some articles about parents who have lived through wars in Cambodia, they were so depressed and suffering from PTSD afterwards they let their own children starve, because they gave up on themselves and life in general. The psychologists ask questions of these people to try and understand why. They don't judge them, they just want to understand and try to help someone else in the future to not experience that. 

It takes (for some, like myself) a lot of patience and hard work to show my children/family kindness no matter what worries and hardships I am going through internally. Sometimes I get so stressed out I am more apt to want to fly off the handle and just rush through things because I have more "pressing matters" at hand to deal with. But really, I just need calm.. I need to know that no matter how poor we are right now, first off, things will get better eventually. And second, this right now is our moment, our life, and we will never get it back. I don't want to be one of those stressed-out, smacks-their-kids-around, yells-at-everyone parents. I just don't want to.

Last week I got a speeding ticket driving home with my daughter. Of course. I kept pushing it out of my mind, thinking, I can't deal with this today I'll think about it tomorrow. And then that problem compiles with my other problems and it makes it hard to get through the day. It's the smallest things that can sometimes just mentally push me over the edge.

A speeding ticket?

How can I let life knock me down to the point where a speeding ticket takes away my ability to have a peaceful day; but it does.

So I try to figure out how I can counteract the overwhelmingly negative and anxiety-filled emotions that I am almost pre-conditioned to feel..

How can I survive these hard years while still being a good person, still having a purpose and being happy..? For me it's a work in progress. But the reason I made this blog was to share with others the benefits mentally that cannabis allows you to have.

I never thought I'd be a parent who has to work on being patient... I thought I would just be patient. Now, maybe being extremely rich would allow me to be extremely patient, I don't know. But I'm pretty sure I'd better figure out some ways to steer clear of being labeled a "bad parent" down the road by my kids for being stressed out. It's not what I say or do that they'll remember, it's how I make them feel.

My natural tendency in this day-in-age is to be overwhelmed, filled with anxiety a good half of my day while the other half I just try to do things that are mind-numbing or productive enough to feel like a real person. I don't know exactly what I expected motherhood to be, but when you're poor'ish, motherhood can be really tough and it's hard to be happy all the time.

When I turned 30, I really thought I would have "life together," but I don't. And I'm told by others older than me that it's a continual work in progress - a "together life." I know I'm genuinely working on making our lives better, not worse, so I guess I can be proud of that.

Weed isn't going to fix problems without some work also. And if you live in a state where it isn't legal, I'd steer clear until it is or you could face a whole new set of problems. But I do believe cannabis gives you the ability to deal with your problems in a more open-minded, thoughtful, honest way. I can say that for me, weed takes anxiety attacks out of my life while still allowing me to function completely normal, in a way that is actually calmer and more patient. Instead of looking at the mess my kid just made on the floor with crayons and thinking "Why Me?!" I look at this little person and realize how fleeting time is, and how one day I will miss this, so I'd better enjoy it.

But it's the weed that does it, not me. My personality wants to be overzealous and hurried and overwhelmed with our struggles. Weed comes in and zaps my brain to just make my brain realize: "Be grateful things aren't worse. Maybe you don't have enough money but at least you have some. Maybe there is a leak in the ceiling but at least there's a ceiling. Maybe life is hard, but it's harder for others. Maybe your toddler is annoying you right now, but be thankful you have a toddler and enjoy it while you can."

There are all sorts of things one can get down about in life, I get it, I really do. And I know it's hard sometimes to be positive and try for better... but I would just say this: Think about how you speak about your families' previous generations... and consider how you will one day be spoken about.

Obviously I can't speak for all parents, and some may need actual medication or counseling or help with issues more than just the "typical American work day" anxieties. I'm talking to those who are  simply trying their best, but face some pretty stressful and unknowing times. 

I'm talking to those who just wish they could live a simpler, happy, fulfilling life without drugs and alcohol, but still need something to help take the edge off.

I'm saying...Google and look for the modern ideas involving Cannabis and see for yourself.



    6.04.2014

    Marijuana / Cannabis for Anxiety..?


    I get super stressed out and irritated, every single day just about.

    Life is stressful for us all, I get it. I listen to problems from friends and co-workers and I'm just sort of scared to get out of bed in the morning sometimes; I don't know how some people do it. I have faults, mistakes, and things I don't see how I'll get through. 

    I've had a really good life, and I feel guilty when I can't better deal with life and anxiety on my own. I am not a person who could ever try/do "hard drugs" (meth/cocaine/heroin) or get addicted to alcohol or pills. My mom, never touched anything...anything! My dad, had a bit of everything, and I'm pretty sure it's what helped lead his early death. So I've seen both sides. For me, I just want...a happy middle. 

    I've watched every season and episode of Intervention (A&E). I know there wasn't even one episode in all 14 seasons which showed someone "addicted solely to marijuana." So, it's like, hmmm... is there truly something miraculous about this little plant? I think so. 

    I promise...as a normal / sane'ish / God-loving woman, I wouldn't write anything I wouldn't believe in my own life or for my children. Like, it will sound crazy, sure, to say "Marijuana helps me to be a better mom." But I really believe it does. I bet it could definitely help any parent, with anger issues or not. I've read time and again in the news articles of parents abusing their kids. I know some people out there need counseling, and it's sad that we don't have such easy access to it. So in the meantime, moms just try to help other moms with what they know. I'm thankful to my two friends, from two separate walks of life, who helped me to see the benefits and the help that vaporizing marijuana brings. 

    Until I myself can afford some awesome counseling session with a life coach, I have to do what I can, and one of the top stress relievers, probably the number one -each and every time - is vaporizing Mj.

    I like doing fun things; what millennial doesn't? But the thing is, vaping Mj is the common denominator no matter what I'm doing -- everything's better because of Mj.

    Most things are stressful, even the fun ones can be. My husband jokes that when we go on vacations, I have to vaporize first, because otherwise I become the tensest, overwhelming ball of stress. So that's our agreement. Vaporizing just helps...the calm.

    If you watch my How-To YouTube video, or ask a friend who's experienced in vaporizing to help you, I promise you will be on a path of more relaxation, peace and overall mental clarity. And if you seek help and other reviews, you'll be a world ahead of the mistakes I made when first trying to vape.

    Vaping takes some practice. But I do believe the outcome is more likened unto using Mj in tea or cooking...subtle, lasting, a better overall experience (vs. traditional puffing).

    And I know I've mentioned I'm Christian…so I am not talking to those without any sort of religious beliefs, or belief in karma, doing good in life, etc.  No amount of Mj will help those who need to take a look at their inner soul and stuff. I'm talking to those who are good peeps… like, work on their car, don't kick the dog, are good to their kids, aren't perfect by any means, but try their best... 

    It's really hard to convince people based on the stigma around "weed" as a "harsh drug."

    But good golly I think it's truly more of a miracle, at least in my own life.

    Miracle? That's a big word for a simple plant or "drug." Yet since it happens to grow in nearly every country in the world, I would say it is a miracle. It's a miracle plant that was put on this Earth in it's natural state for a reason. The Bible says, "partake of the herbs of the Earth," so I feel like I should stick up for something that has helped me tremendously. I commend those who are brave enough to step out and say medical marijuana helps... I have to do so from behind my computer screen for now.

    I'm here to say Mj is not a drug, it's a miraculous plant. I'm another voice for the legalization of medical marijuana. 

    My overall point is, I want to be this happy and calm person naturally, but that's just not going to happen anytime soon; not for me. I have empathy for American parents out there whom just don't know a life of happiness, because we think our "American problems" are so great and overwhelming that we let it affect who we are extremely negatively, and that's not good.

    Now, even though I know it's wrong to complain about this or that (mine would be: husband interviewing for a new job, my recent speeding ticket, being super lonely with no family around us, struggling in a slow economy on one income yet needing two, student loans, trying to find a new rental in a good area, you get the idea..)  It makes me really empathize for those who really struggle, who have no help, just trying to survive. I'm no stranger to single parenting, my mom was alone after my dad passed away. But now I wonder, how on earth did she do it, sanely? Never a slew of loser boyfriends or drugs or drinking or beating us...just a completely sane, nice, kind, takes her kids to church on Sundays and does the best she can on one-income parent. She just went on and did it on her own and never once did I really hear her complain. She never said she felt suicidal or if she ever felt super depressed or anything. It's like Baby Boomers just stuff all of their feelings inside, and our generation just wants to share all of those feelings and ask the question: WHY?  Why to everything!

    I know I'm supposed to be grateful for having running water and electricity and safety. But I sometimes get so terrified to check our bank account that I feel paralyzed or something. I can't really explain it. It's such a catch 22, when you have kids. You've finally completed that "final task" in life for the next 18 years, you're a parent, but some us are still like, okay and then what? 

    Day after day, especially as my child grows, I feel so much anxiety naturally I don't know how people do it. And truthfully I really understand why or when people do drugs: to numb your crazy thoughts and memories if you must get away from them. Your brain, it's like your best friend and your worst nightmare all at once. Everyone has their own way of dealing with stress and hard times in life, I can't say which is right for any which person. But for me, cannabis is truly such a beneficial tool in dealing with my anxiety that still allows me to have a sane, normal, happy life. Sure, I have anxiety...but how am I going to honestly choose to deal with it? I can't seem to read enough self-help or inspirational moments to get to a place where it's a constant and I don't even have to try. And the older I get, the more I start to never see anyone who has it "completely together" who isn't hiding something. I guess. It just makes me think that no one is perfect, no one has that perfect life, life is simply always a struggle for one reason or another. For me though, I want to be a calm, relaxed and stable person. Without the help of cannabis, I surely, 100% would not have made it through child-rearing thus far as well and sane as I have. 

    Not only does it help me to just keep sane somehow, it keeps my husband and I as the best of friends. I think it's a marriage miracle-worker. Mark my word, if you are sane and level-headed and so is your spouse, but you sometimes encounter those awful days at work or a horrible problem.. if you will have a vaporized Mj puff session in the morning and maybe one before bed I just promise you, as Medical Marijuana Mom, you'll have the most relaxed and happiest state of mind for your entire day, despite the terrible news or problem you are dealing with.

    It's like Mj puts your worries on the back-burner for a bit to just give you that much needed break to relax. In my opinion, the effects of vaporizing cannabis is just like he said in Knocked Up: "It just makes everything better.




    4.01.2014

    Interesting video about using MJ for seizures...



    @ 7:40 he talks about Charlotte going from having 400 seizures per week to 0-1 per week using a special pediatric grade MEDICAL MARIJUANA. And she was no longer using Pharmaceuticals at that point.




    Original Source:

    http://www.upworthy.com/think-marijuana-is-for-stoners-meet-a-6-year-old-girl-who-might-just-disagree-with-you-on-that?c=reccon1


    2.26.2014

    My Best Friend Doesn't Believe Me...


    My very best friend of ten years doesn't 100% believe me about the overall lifestyle benefit of vaporizing medical marijuana. 

    Ever since my surgery a few years ago, I am a true believer of the various benefits of this plant, which is why I started this blog. 

    When soldiers can be treated with Post-Traumatic-Stress-Disorder, maybe we could think hmmm....if MY life is stressful almost every day, I've had some pretty rough times, could MJ help me

    - - - 

    Jeremiah Civil and Christian Slater are veterans of the Iraq War. These men saw things that would make the average citizen cringe in horror, and they left the war with deep emotional scars. Both Jeremiah and Christian were diagnosed with PTSD shortly before returning home, thrown into the wild world of a society that doesn’t understand their condition.
    “When I smoke, it makes my brain slow down enough to deal with all of the sh#t out in the world. It helps me reach a balancing point. I’ve been on every drug they have out there and none of them did what marijuana has done for me,” Christian told me over an enormous spliff. In the military, he worked as a nuclear biological chemical defense marine and a mortuary affairs specialist, and spent time in Mozambique and Latvia doing embassy security. During this time he was unfortunate enough to be inside a tank that was flipped over. He suffered serious spinal cord injuries, and after spending the better part of a year inside a hospital, he was eventually released. Upon his return, he was diagnosed with PTSD and given a slew of prescription drugs to help the symptoms and relieve his back pain, which he still suffers from today. 
    The only thing they found that was able to help alleviate their symptoms was weed.
    “When I smoke pot it takes care of my depression and anxiety. It makes it so I can go out in public. If someone tailgates me, I’m more likely to not give a f##k, and it doesn’t make me zombie out,” Jeremiah explained, saying that if someone tailgates you in Iraq they might be on the verge of attacking you.  Source: www.vice.com

    - - - 

    So, very recently, my BFF (30/waitress/female/one kid) was in the car when her boyfriend got a DUI for driving home from a super bowl party having drank a few beers. His car was impounded. He is now facing those charges. 

    Not very smart choices, but most of us have known someone in this predicament. 

    She finally decided to accept a little portable vaporizer and small bag of Mj to try, because she wants to stop drinking altogether. 

    After only a few days of using Mj, my friend was starting to feel the calmness, the relaxation, and letting the "paranoid" feeling wear off on it's own. She was starting to see how everything can feel  more calm, but you're not "under the influence of a drug" and able to do everything like normal. She liked not having a sick feeling in the morning like after a night of drinking. She had used cannabis before with friends and she isn't against it at all; but as an every-day aid, I doubt she will continue.

    They already drank since "quitting" a few weeks ago, when faced with an uncomfortable, overwhelming friend/family get-together. Now, I get taking your pipe and MJ out at a family function is probably not possible; but I wish it were. I think a lot of people would be way better off than drinking. 

    She said she and her boyfriend probably won't continue using Mj because they don't have a medical card and because he feels "paranoid" and can't look people in the eye. 

    : (  

    What I realized was, no matter how great Mj works for me, it took a long time to get to a place of feeling comfortable and even more myself after a puff. I remember feeling paranoid and that "everyone could tell." It's hard to get over. 

    But I promise, so long as you have eye drops in to fight the red-eye effect, no one can tell... 

    My own husband usually has to ask "did you puff?" He can't tell if I'm just in a good mood, or if I had a puff. And usually, to be honest, it's a good mood because I had a puff. 

    I'm sorry I'm just not strong enough to be "chipper pipper" 24/7. Sorry we live in the year 2014 and as a millennial, I'm overwhelmed with a lot in life. New day new problem. Weed just helps you see the brighter side of things through the scarier things....like changing a screaming kids' poopy diaper, or pressing "ignore" to one more bill collector call, or worrying about work and your mom's health, etc.

    There's no need to even try other things like prescription drugs, alcohol or hard drugs when you use Mj, because it truly is just a higher quality of life. Coupled with watching Interventions, you learn that probably shooting heroin does feel great, but you can't get through this life doped up on heroin to feel better. You kinda have to accept the good with the bad, and I'm talking day in & day out. With that, comes a relief aid. Marijuana. A relaxer. Just like Jeremiah and Chris use, with PTSD from serving in Iraq. 

    - - - 

    True Story... 

    One day my husband and I had an overwhelming family function to attend which first included an errand/store stop with everyone. This was before we had kids...

    While in the back parking lot of the store in our car, we puffed from a little portable pipe. Put in our eye drops, sprayed febreze in the car, popped in a breath mint and in the store we went. We had just stepped inside and there was all of the family, standing there, his mom in front!

    Now, my husband's mother is no feeble woman. If she had suspected her son of having been "high on Marijuana" there wasn't a person in the store she would have cared if they heard her yelling. It would have been pretty bad. And I gotta admit, it was scary walking in and facing them...but what could we do? We went on and faced themlooked his parents square in the eyes and said our hellos! 

    Nothing happened. No one could tell. 

    If they had, there's no way they would have carried on about the day (strict, military, way-Christian parent types) even buying our lunch later and being nice to us. No way! 

    So my point is, there we were, somewhat "Mj Pros" and we still felt that stigma of eyes watching us, waiting to be "caught" in the knowingness of onlookers. But the truth is, in my experience, people can't tell. 

    Anyhow, 

    I figured if I couldn't even convince a very good friend to completely go from alcohol to just using medical marijuana, there may not be much hope in helping any viewers out there to be convinced. So I've got to figure out a project this year to convince people to at least try Mj as a lifestyle aid, while pushing out the addictions that are actually harmful to ourselves and our well-being. 

    I want to bring the truth to people because this life is so hard. This life will break you down if you let it. I can't explain how Marijuana being vaporized (or, puffed) can help your mental state of mind every single day, but it can. It simply does. 

    Why is every season of Intervention ALWAYS about alcohol, pills, meth, crack, cocaine, heroin....?

    Why are NONE of them about solely using Marijuana? In fourteen seasons...?

    Because they would seriously never, ever consider someone "on Marijuana" a drug addict or unable to function and needing help. 

    Ask ourselves, why is that? 

    Because it's simply not harmful. So if it's not harmful, could it actually be beneficial? 

    I believe so. 

    - - - 

    And God said, "Behold I have given you every plant yielding seed that is on the face of all the earth, and every tree with seed in its fruit. You shall have them for food." Genesis 1:29

    "Bitter is a dinner of herbs where love is than a fattened ox and hatred with it." Proverbs 15:17

    "Every moving thing that lives shall be food for you. And as I gave you the green plants, I give you everything." Genesis 9:3

    - - - 

    God said, "Behold, I have given you every herb bearing seed which is upon the face of all the earth.…To you it will be for meat." … And God saw everything that he had made, and, behold, it was very good. (Genesis 1:29-31) The Bible predicts some herb's prohibition. "Now the Spirit speaketh expressly, that in the latter times, some shall … speak lies in hypocrisy … commanding to abstain from meats which God hath created to be received with thanksgiving of them which believe and know the truth. (Paul: 1 Timothy 4:1-3)


    The Bible speaks of a special plant. "I will raise up for them a plant of renown, and they shall be no more consumed with hunger in the land, neither bear the shame of the heathen any more." (Ezekiel 34:29) A healing plant. On either side of the river, was there the tree of life, which bare 12 manner of fruits, and yielding her fruit every month; and the leaves of the tree were for the healing of the nations. (Revelations 22:1-2) A gift from God.


    Cannabis was used 12 ways: clothing, paper, cord, sails, fishnet, oil, sealant, incense, food, and in ceremony, relaxation and medicine. For so the Lord said unto me, "I will take my rest and I will consider in my dwelling place like a clear heat upon herbs. For afore harvest, when the bud is perfect and the sour grape is ripening in the flower, he shall cut off the sprigs with pruning hooks and take away and cut down the branches." (Isaiah 18:4-5)


    Alcohol is the only drug openly discussed in the Bible, so it must serve as our reference. Wine is drunk during religious occasions such as Passover &emdash; the Last Supper of Jesus and His disciples. It remains a sacrament in modern church services.
    Jesus began his public life by miraculously turning water into wine at the Wedding at Cana (John 2:1-10) when the reception ran out. The Bible distinguishes between use and misuse. It says, Give strong drink unto him that is ready to perish and wine unto those that be of heavy hearts. (Proverbs 31:6-7) but Woe unto them that … follow strong drink; that continue until night, till wine inflame them! (Isaiah 5:10)


    ~ Bible passages courtesy of equalrights4all.com ~




    1.27.2014

    How to use Da Buddha vaporizer - Video Tutorial


    Hello my Mj friends,

    I just wanted to share a video we made over the weekend, with a simple, step-by-step process for using a standard vaporizer. We are using Da Buddha, which can be purchased here from VaporNation (free, discreet shipping!)

    Enjoy, and hope this helps!


    1.06.2014

    10 Awesome quotes by Mark Wahlberg -



    If I succeed in business but fail as a father, then I've failed.

    I've always looked at my career as an athlete would look at his. I won't play forever. Some don't know when to walk away, but the smart ones do.

    And I tell you, having girls has made me a much better man. I have friends who are fathers, but they only have boys, and they have the same attitude toward women they always had, you know? And I don't play that... My girls, you mess with them? I will bury you underground.

    If I can start my day out by saying my prayers and getting myself focused, then I know I'm doing the right thing. That 10 minutes helps me in every way throughout the day.

    I want people to come see my films and enjoy them but at the end of the day you can't control what people think.

    I pray to be a good servant to God, a father, a husband, a son, a friend, a brother, an uncle, a good neighbor, a good leader to those who look up to me, a good follower to those who are serving God and doing the right thing.

    I did a lot of things that I regretted and I certainly paid for my mistakes. You have to go and ask for forgiveness and it wasn't until I really started doing good and doing right, by other people as well as myself, that I really started to feel that guilt go away. So I don't have a problem going to sleep at night.
     
    As far as I'm concerned, there's no job more important on the planet than being a mom.

    Having two daughters changed my perspective on a lot of things, and I definitely have a newfound respect for women. And I think I finally became a good and real man when I had a daughter.

    You kind of have to be able to accept things for the way they are, and once you do that I think you can be really comfortable.